Well, I have been the big 2-6 for over almost 2 months now. I must say that I am a total fan of 26. Although, today I totally freaked out that I will be 27 next year and that just has always sounded to me like it is so old. No offense to all you 27 year olds. I think it is the 7. I think I should just skip to 28. I like even numbers.
In any case, I am a fan.
I thought about it tonight and I am starting to actually feel my age. Until now, I generally felt like I was still living a carefree existence like some 18 year old just gone off to college, not really knowing what is coming next. But nowadays, I feel a lot more settled, comfortable in my own skin, more assertive and confident than I have ever been in my entire life.
It’s pretty strange how life never really turns out the way you thought it would. I bet if you had asked me 10 years ago where I would be in my 26th year of life I would have said something to this effect:
I’ll be married and have a nice, big home with a wrap around porch and a cutesy porch swing with my husband. He’ll be a musician for sure. I’ll be a social worker. We have two kids already and a third one on the way because we need to fill up our big house. I’ll drive a Jeep Cherokee (which is what I always hoped for when playing MASH). I’ll live close to my mom so she can watch her grandchildren, which she actually loves doing and I don’t even have to ask. And I am an amazing cook! In fact, the kids love everything I make and are so well behaved at the dinner table. I make dinner every night and always have something freshly baked in the kitchen. I will shop at Anthropologie and Loft exclusively and still be a size 3. I read before bed, get 8 hours of sleep a night and cuddle with my husband every night.
Needless to say, that isn’t where life ended up taking me. And ya know what? I am totally ok with that.
When I think about where I am, I can’t help but smile. Things are cozy and comfortable. I am loved, adored even and I have just about everything I will want. Everything seems to nowadays be falling right into place. Most of the time, my hopes and dreams are right around the corner, so close I can see them.
Today, it is mighty comforting to know that life doesn’t have to follow all my plans in order to be exactly what I need.